First love...

Who remembers their first love?

First loves are the most special love!
The one you'll never forget, the one that made your world turn upside down...
Our first love happens when we are still young, innocent, pure, and it makes the relationship just as more powerful as your real love!
It's that one love that isn't picture perfect (oh no, far from it),that may end up in heartbreaks you'll never forget about, even after years away from that person! Your feelings will be there, somewhere, hiding away, but each you'll think of your first love, these feelings come rushing out... The one you "let slip" through your fingers!

When we say first love we refer to the first time you actually felt love running through your body. The one that you cared a lot more than most people, the one that made you feel butterflies in your tummy each time they would look into your eyes...
The one that made your excitement feel more powerful than ever before!
It's the first time you don't know what you are actually doing, the one that you have no control whatsoever! The first time when you feel lost because you don't know how to not fall in love! It's that one love that you want to spend your entire life with, every moment with that one person!
First love is innocent, pure, silly, crazy, unrealistic, But then they walked away, talking all your first times with them, away. It becomes an adventure, a crazy ride through feelings, emotions,
You may be happy today, thinking you completely forgot about that person, that it is just a memory, a long lost souvenir, yet it is haunting you. Trying to recreate that powerful first love is nearly impossible, that's why it's such an amazing and yet saddest moment, feeling! No matter what you may try to do to make it happen once again, it doesn't work. What's gone is gone! Love will never feel as excited as your first one!

Now when you "look" for love , you are more cautious, trust less, become almost untouchable. The uncertainty of belonging in a love like your first made you feel like is now just a feeling of losing yourself in a cautious path. That first love made you fall, fall hard. It turned you to into this pragmatic being who weighs every possibility,

analyses every situation, believing in only what you see, thinking a million times before letting your feelings come out. It might actually end up making you wiser than you were already! More careful to what might come ahead of you! It created a hole in your sole, and it won't fill it again! 

No matter how much you want that love back it just won't come around again, it will haunt you forever. Don't try to recreate that love, look ahead, stop thinking that you find that other half! If it was meant to be you would still be in that relationship! 

Look ahead :)

"Your first love will always have that special place in your heart!"

~Bella

This weekend...

Sunday was a wedding day for a family friend... Got to wear a dress with heels and look cute for the special day! 

It was a wonderful, beautiful ceremony! Loved being able to assist it, and being a part of it all! I was more than happy to be there, got to see people I enjoy spending time with! 

Now I don't want to talk about the wedding as it is private and, to be honest, I'm sure you are all tired of hearing about weddings, after all, it's wedding season! 

So let's talk about my little wonder because it's not the first time something like this happens! 

Last Friday was the before wedding party at some friends house, I came and got the chance to meet the kids of parents I already knew. The parents have two boys of their own and adopted the others. Now if you don't know me, you have to know that kids tend to like me quite a lot, and I love them! I love spending time and give everything I have for them! It's like that motherly type of "thing" that I have. Annoying but useful. 
At the party, I got tired of talking to adults (they can be boring); I decided to go check up on the kids who were playing on the other side of the house, the front to be exact, playing around with a BB gun, tennis table, basketball... Sadly, one of the kid, the youngest got a mark on his back from getting shot multiple times with the BB gun! Dangerous game if you ask me! The poor little 8-year-old Joey didn't even cry, but I couldn't help myself, I needed to give him ice to put on his back! 
Now don't think he didn't have his father around, but I took the charge because parents need time off! 
Then, one of his older brothers stepped on his leg and bruised it, more ice was going to be added which was alright with me. I was taking care of a cute kid. What else could I have asked for?!

Keep in mind that I only met the kid two days prior to the wedding!

We all around 11 A.M., looking sharp, waiting for the ceremony to start and having everyone around! When I stepped away from the car, I hugged Joey's mother who was standing the closest and Joey not far away from us came running towards me. I backed away wondering how he was going to say "hi", and jumped on me! He said hello, and hugged me tightly, not wanted to let go! I'm always happy to have kids running towards me, it's always a great way to know they love me, but I was wearing a dress... And if you never held a kid in your arms, they either tend to pull down on shirts or pull up dresses (for women). I managed to pull it down before my panties got to be seen and kept holding little Joey until one of his older brother the 10 years old one jumped on me as well. Heavier kid, and this time my dress didn't get to pull up which made me happy! So I got to get plenty hugs from both of them. Throughout the wedding and the lunch moment, Joey was either hugging me, jumping on me, or trying to get me to eat chillies which will NEVER happen! I don't do spicy, but I ended up playing around with him and the other kids. I'm rather short and not that heavy, so holding a kid who's close to my weight was pretty damn hard, I finally have sore arms. I can't lift any arms without feeling pain. It's bugging me, but it was worth it all! 

So now, I was wondering how I get kids to like me and why I attract them. It's not the first time, but this one, after one night, he remembered me and jumped on me! I was surprised, and now I'm wondering why kids come to me. I look like a child but I'm older, way older than all of them. Why do they come? I don't do anything, and I surely not the easiest to deal with, I'm rather strict at times. 
Honestly, if you have any idea why this happen, can you let me know in the comments below so I can finally figure this out? 

"Children do not care how much you know until they know how much you care." - Teddy Roosevelt

~Bella

Ps: I will probably post a picture of me and little Joey when I get photos but I don't have them yet so you'll have to be patient!  :)

Oh what's that there? .... Just a kid....

I think I can say that we all kind of babysat someone once in our life, a sibling or friend's kids... But how many of you can certify that the kids love you? 

Let me give you my experience... 
My mother's friend has two young boys, and I've known them since their birth. One is around 2 and the other 8, different ages, different personalities, and different taste in movies, food (except when it comes to popcorn, let's be honest we all have the same taste)...

I've been helping out a lot for the past year or two, coming by, babysitting them when needed. I've learned so much from them, it's crazy! Between the diapers, the baths, movie moments, dancing around, building forts, reading (mostly describing the drawings), the cooking, the lullabies at night time, the cuddles and kisses, but also the fights, the arguments on who is better at making popcorn, or just having a time out (they do get punished sometimes). 
Watching kids isn't just about playing, it's about being there for them. They can come to you and talk about anything without worrying about you spilling out to their parents. It's also great training if you want kids of your own...

For the past year or two, I learned that kids are rather easy when you know how to talk to them without any pressure. It must come naturally, they might be kids but they are far from being stupid. They test you, try to know how far you will go, just remember you are older and deserve the respect just like you have to give them respect. You are like a role model to them... You have to show you can be fun, loving, affectionate, understandable but also strict and that they can't control you. Yes, they tend to do so the first couple times, but then again it can be a quick passage. 
My little monsters are quite the monsters, energetic ones that can't get enough of running around, but also have these moments where they just want some cuddles. 
I know those two have crushes... Who could resist me?! Just kidding. But honestly, when they scream your name when they see you coming through the door or say I love you before anyone else, or prefers to have you than anyone else... Or make an exception when it comes to hugging or giving you a kiss... When they both trap you down on the bed until they fall asleep... Or when they lay down on you just to make sure you wouldn't move away from the movie...  It cannot get better than this.

I've always loved kids, always loved to be protective of them, and to be honest they bring out the joy that you may not have in your life. They are the ones that will keep you occupied from everything else that is happening in your life, keep you away from thinking negatively... I'm young, yet I would love to be a mother soon-ish... Let's be honest, I already act like a mother to people and can't get enough of their cuteness...! 

"That sweet feeling when a little kid yells your name, runs up, and hugs your legs."

~Bella