A hopeless romantic writer who only wants to share with the entire world.
"Your story may not have such a happy beginning, but that doesn't make you who you are. It is the rest of your story, who you choose to be..."
You must be wondering what the title means and to be fairly honest I'm with you on this one. Not sure what I wanted to called today's post so I ended up with my Coffee Bean order and my slight annoying issue that I've been having since I became friends with one of the worker there. What a love story but that's for other day... So it ended up being Cookies and Cream for my order, and little buggies for my own love life... So today's post has a personal twist in it, and questions that I've been having for years, unanswered questions, obviously or else it wouldn't be fun. Curse- to use a word or expression that is not polite and shows that you are very angry. Curse- magic words that are intended to bring bad luck to someone. Curse- a cause of trouble and unhappiness.
As you may have guessed it, today's post is about a curse, one specific curse which is getting all the women in my family in trouble especially from my grandmother to my mother to me. Three generations of unpleasant love stories, and I'm only starting my life... So start imagining the worse for me. ( I'm currently laughing as I'm writing this, but trust me, deep down, I'm crying an ocean). Don't get me wrong, I have a hard time believing in curses especially love curses. When I hear the word curse, I automatically go for witches and magic spells, the stuff that are in fairytales. Laugh all you want cause I'm laughing at this idiotic thing myself. But when I look at the love experience between my grandmother, my mother and a few other women in my family and how embarrassing their love lives are... You can only believe a curse is upon the women of the family. There is obviously some couples who are doing great, but most are beyond sad and the women fall for the wrong guys. Talk about bad luck! It started with my grandmother who passed away a few years back. After that, my mother talked to me a bit more about the woman who I had never seen in my life and won't ever be able to. My grandmother had no luck when it came to love, to find the right man and to be a strong independent woman. Love makes you blind and she was the best example for it! Little side note: French guys, especially back in the 1970's until 2000, were known to be a little too "superior" compare to woman who were to believed to be in the kitchen taking care of the household and the kids. Somehow, even after the woman got more power, the men are still known to act like jerks to their women. Old fashion style to make it simpler. That is also the reason why I try my hardest to stay away from French guys, plus after seeing the world and living in a different country makes me realize that no matter what, I will never really get along with a French guy. So to go back to my grandmother, she had no luck, and her choice was poor concerning her life style as well as her love life. From walking away type of guys to physically/emotionally violent guys. Well, I'm sure you can imagine these types of guys. Choosing or falling in love with the right person seems to be nearly impossible for us, and even if I only started, I'm afraid to fall into the same cycle as my grandmother as well as my own mother. They both endure sad moments, no luck with guys, and both never gave me a good example, so being scared of falling for the wrong guys in obviously there! Despite the fact that we have no luck in love, I don't want to get through the same bullocks of my grandmother nor my mother's. It would be too hurtful, and last time I check I was far from being my mother, not that strong.
Now, the only thing I want to understand is why we have no luck, why do we attract the same type of guys, and why don't we go for the people who are suppose to make us happy? Is it because we have no positive male figure around us? Is it because we trust too much (can't be right for me since I don't trust people)? Are we too nice (maybe yes for my mother)? Too many thoughts, too many ideas to keep up with. Is the curse even real? Because all I know is that it's just some bad luck that is running through family members. "It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply." ~Bella
Inauguration day... Donald Trump Jr. became president of the USA. The entire world watched from Great Britain to Australia. People from everywhere either crying, trying to realize what's going on, or some are just beyond joyful about the news. Everyone has their opinion on the subject. I know I do, and as an European, it's not that great of a news. It's actually a complete nightmare. The past is the past, we cannot change it but we can learn, sadly, humans tend to not learn much throughout the years, let's be honest, we see it with the last election!
The day after Tump's inauguration, people across the world started marching. Marching you ask, yes marching as in walking throughout streets to protest against what Trump have been saying against women. The mass majority is the women walking for their rights, but also men who happen to agree. Women have fought for their rights, so why is Trump going to just disregard that? The question struck me! No idea, if you have a clue, please tell me! When you hear women, you think of a mature girl who is independent, strong, and determined to succeed in whatever she wishes. For me, a woman is a mature person who can be a mother as well as a wife and a business woman. It's a human being who is capable of being kind but stubborn when needed, understandable, compassionate, respectful but not too much that she is overly arrogant! A woman is capable of being herself, disregarding comments that may be thrown her way! So when women are once again treated as garbage by men who have women around them, it makes me a little upset, more than usual. I can understand why men would be slightly underestimating women, but having a president who doesn't comprehend the fact that women have fought for centuries about their rights, about EVERYTHING, it makes the country go very low.
Trump may have qualities, he may be an amazing, but I wouldn't think so at all, not after hearing his speeches, or the way he acts around his beloved wife. Let's look how Obama treated his wife with much more respect than most men would with their wives. He proved us that behind a man there is a woman! Besides the husband there's a wife, supporting him, loving him, being proud of who they became. It doesn't matter if you are married to another man, being homosexual, there's a woman behind them as well, mothers. Who had to go throw labor to give you life? Who had to give up hours of beauty sleep to breast feed you? Who had to spend hours cleaning you, change your diapers, change the bedsheets because you had accidents? Who had to deal with sticky underwears? Who taught you how to talk, read, eat properly? Who took the time to listen to you when you were not happy or having issues? Who spent hours in the kitchen, making you healthy food to eat so you do not starve? I can go on, I see it every day with my mum, I had to deal with it when I was with my father when they divorced. I had to deal woman chores at a young age, and being a mother is a job, underrated job which isn't recognized by anyone. When you hear Trump talk about women in such a manner, it proves that he doesn't care, appreciate his own mother, so how could he appreciate any woman? Make America great again? It had to be in a horrible position in order to make it great again. It's being beyond great since Obama took office since he tried to repair the mistake that was done before. Now Trump will just destroy everything that Obama have done for this country. Instead of having his own people under health insurance so they don't die because there's no money to get help, HE WILL LET THEM DIE WITH NO MONEY! Yet, let's make America great again... Marching may seem like nothing to a lot, but it shows that we are alive, we are here and we are strong enough to stay where we belong or not more... Many women have fought for countries, for equal rights, and now they want to take them away like they never happened? I don't think so. Women may not be as physically strong than men, but women are determined, stubborn and mentally strong to take down anyone who may treat them like garbage. If we fight together (peaceful, mental fight), we are capable of succeeded! Achieve what we want!
Let's not forget the strong women who fought for our rights, for us! "We have talked long enough in this country about equal rights. We have talked for one hundred years or more. It is time now to write the next chapter, and to write it in the books of law." - Lyndon B. Johnson ~Bella
It started with my grandmother who passed away a few years back. After that, my mother talked to me a bit more about the woman who I had never seen in my life and won't ever be able to. My grandmother had no luck when it came to love, to find the right man and to be a strong independent woman. Love makes you blind and she was the best example for it! 
